I am not sure why this comes to mind, I think partially because a lot of our mistakes can be attributed to not changing habits, or at least not recognizing when a habit needs to be changed. I have habits I need to change and I made some mistakes today that led to frustration with myself and those around me. It wasn’t fair and I know I can do better, but I also know I can’t bury those feelings or they will build up to something bigger. It wasn’t anything in particular, I learned something that stuck with me and that led to me being preoccupied for longer than I should have been, which then led to me not being focused where I needed to be focused.
I have a habit of fixating on situations largely out of my control, searching for a change or solution when there isn’t one, when I know there isn’t one, but I continue to try and be the hero who solves the problem. It is tough to accept that sometimes problems aren’t to be solved, and that the situation requires a change in perspective and developing new habits to help make the new reality more manageable. We’ll see how that realization goes, I expect a lot of mistakes to continue being made, but hopefully in the service of new habits that help me be better.
Aside – I realize my writing is less than polished, it rambles, is disjointed and poorly constructed. It is largely a stream of consciousness process where I use a writing app called “Flowstate” that has a feature where if I stop typing for 5 seconds all of the previous writing is deleted, no copy and paste, no saving, it is just a process of writing with minimal revisions. I can set the timer and am up to 5 minutes, which is a challenging amount of time to write continuously coherently, so if you have at this stage have managed to wade through this, or any of my recent posts, it is appreciated.
Learning to Lead 